two.

ew, i feel like shit.
my stomache doesn't like me right now apparently.

it's only tuesday...
it feels like the days have been years.
i hate it.

even working six days a week, life feels like it's taking forever.

eight months until august.

eight months until i can have a change of scenery.
eight months until i need to find a new job.

eight months until i can start school.

eight months until austin & i live together.
i wish it were only one month away; i just can't wait.

well, at least it is only two and half days until i see austin again!

i ordered some books from amazon.com for super cheap :]
don't even ask what books - you'll laugh.

i find that after i read "deep" books,
(socrates cafe, anthem, today's isms, ect)
i need to read ridiculous teen drama books.

austin laughs at me...
he says i can't read them because i am not a teen anymore.

sercretly, i really enjoy these crazed teen books.
the drama is hilarious.

i live my life as far from drama as possible.
i take myself out of dramatic situations.

i think this is why i find these books so fascinating.
who's sleeping with who?
who stole who's boyfriend?
who did what behind their best friend's back?

it just makes me laugh.
& since i never went crazy as a teenager,
it's great to read about these teens doing just that
without actually having to go through it myself, hehe.

i've read the first two books in this popular series as of right now
& i ordered the next two.

they should be in tomorrow - yay.

well, that's the extint of my life right now.

thanks for reading!

one.

i really don't like drama.
why do people insist on starting it?

after taking a step back from the "group"...
i walk back in for an hour and i realize i like it better on the outside.

i like being close with one person,
& he's not going anywhere any time soon.

i crave intelligent conversation!
i crave learning!
learning trades, learning laugages, learning cultures, learning history.
just anything and everything of this world.
i just want to be a sponge; soak up every last drop around me.

i don't want to work two jobs anymore.
i want to travel.
i want to meet new people.
people who live day to day.
people who struggle just to survive.
i want that inspiration.
i want to see that first hand.

i want to help.
i want to save.
i want to teach.
i want to learn.

i want life.
and i want change.