six.

i realllllly should write here more often.
no one reads this, but i enjoy writing it.

nothing new.
working still....
spending my money,
when i should be saving.

tampa in august, i hope.
apartment status: NOTHING :(
college status: shooting for january

oh and won't she think i'm cool...
i plan to major in anthropology.
go ahead, tell me all about it,
as if you took the classes yourself.
maybe plan to be a nutritional anthropologist?

i'm reading good books...
"Snuff" by Chuck Palahniuk
"Belle de Jour" by anonymous
^both on working girls, i love it.

also just recently bought a book
on Helen of Troy... should be interesting!

i saw him yesterday...
mr. gross from yearssssss ago.
i was able to run out of the store
before i was seen, thank god!
mr. amazing stopped, turned and looked
at him though (: hahah Austin makes
me so happy. i am so lucky to have him.

everyone seems to be finding someone
for themselves now. i am happy i'm not
searching, and learning for love. i've got
mine now, and i've had him for three years (:

blah blah blah.

five.

there are a few people in my life
who are currently driving me crazy.
this is about more than one person.
this is about more than two people.
this is all about all them...

you are a dumbass.
you will regret everything you've done.
you've got to figure your shit out.
i just want to have fun.
i don't want to take anything seriously for a while...
but unlike you.... i won't regret what i've done.
you are so lame...both of you.
i'm sick of people changing for the worse.
if you can't change to make this world a better place,
don't change at all.

this girl just wants to have fun for a while.

♥Mannie

four.

my confessions.

- one person can have more than one number -

(one) when i was younger i tried to be just like your sister and until a few years ago still did.

(two) you used to be really bad about making fun of my brother, even now i want to hit you for it... but it's illegal; you're young.

(three) i want to be like you and your husband when i get married.

(four) i always wanted to be a good friend of yours, but you never really paid attention to me. and now you've mood far away.

(five) you are a hypocrite; you drive me crazy. but i have to love you.

(six) you've grown up so much... and i'm so glad you have.

(seven) you smell bad.... and always have, but i still love you.

(eight) you've known me since the being of school... and you've changed a lot. i don't like this "new & improved" you.

(nine) we've been friends for a long time... and i know our friendship is just growing bigger, and bigger.

(ten) i haven't known you too terribly long, but you've had quite a past i hear.

(eleven) these days i am trying to be just like you... exactly... i'm lame.

(twelve) in the begining you were the sweetest girl i knew. when you started being up her butt you turned for the worst. i'm glad you are coming back around.
(thirteen) you broke me heart; enough said.

(fourteen) you make me sick, even after all these years. you are the reason i keep to myself towards the end of high school.

(fifteen) it was fun while it lasted, but were to lame for me.

(sixteen) you're family... so i have to love you..... even if i think you are super stupid.

(seventeen) you aren't a strong person, but you are still my idol.

(eighteen) you are so smart... why do you work in such a shitty industry?

(nineteen) i always said i'd "bone" you in a heartbeat... but i'm always taken be someone who's better than you anyways.

(twenty) you've changed. now you're leaving.. have a nice life - stay alive.

(twenty-one) i can't wait to party my face off with you.

(twenty-two) there's a girl out there for you... i promise (at least i hope so)

(twenty-three) you've been through hell and back on more than one occasion and somewhere thoughout that time we became friends... i love you. good luck with life.

(twenty-four) my cousin knew you first.... you have sooo much potential. we'll be reading about you in the headlines soon.

(twenty-five) you cheated on me & started all the drama. burn in hell.

(twenty-six) you waited around for you... it was one of the biggest wastes of time in my life.

(twenty-seven) you've taught me so much. i'm so lucky to have you in my life.

(twenty-eight) you cheated on me beacuse i wouldn't give it up for you.

(twenty-nine) you take such good are of me.. all of you do.

sooooooooooooooooooooooo many more to come.

do yourself a favor
& don't try to figure
out which ones you are.

♥Mannie

three

a new year

with new experiences

& new opportunities to learn

a new year

with the same shit

& no year will change that

last night was fun.
being away from two of my
closest friends & then finally being
able to see & hang out with them both...
it was just great. after two mixed beverages
& a walk around town like old times
we went to her house & of course
made the traditional food; bean dip.
then off to making bottles for Zander
& sharing a bottle of wine :]
it was great... it felt great.
thank you both!

i know she's got a lot of shit happening
& i know she's strong...she can do it alone!

i know he misses everyone
& i know he deserves this new job!

AUSTIN <3

it's been so hard to be so far.

by august i'll be by your side

when you wake up every morning.

by august i'll cook for your every meal

making sure there's nothing green.

by august i'll wash all your clothes

& remember to take the shirt out first & hang them up.

by august i'll be supportive of what you are doing with your life

& help you with anything & everything i can.

i can't wait to start our lives together.

please don't break my heart :]

i love you baby.